No doubt, no one’s life is without change. This month, however, we’ve been in the midst of some mind-blowing changes. My husband has always had a bad back. I’ve known about it since we met almost 20 years ago. It has ‘gone out’ in the past. Usually, he rebounds within a week. Last year, when neck pain began, we sought a doctor’s opinion.
They called it a type of degeneration of the vertebrae in the neck. He was put on a brief stint of steroids, NSAIDs, & supplements. Things have been decent for him for a while. That is until about 2 weeks ago. We’ve had brief days of snow here. One particular day, we got almost 6 inches. He went to plow & salt a parking lot, slipped, and jarred his back. Calling home soon after, he told me, his back went out & he was hunched over.
I knew he hurt. I didn’t know how badly. He started to improve within a few days. Unfortunately, it didn’t last.
One night, I fell out of bed, face first. As I tried to get back into the bed, impeded by a 60 lb dog hogging the blanket, he got out of bed and in a freak accident, fell over me. I’d been sort of kneeling so he tripped and fell right over top of me. It hurt us both. What was the worst, was that he’d tried at the last minute to prevent the fall, forcing his back & sides to tense up.
Immediately, he was in agony. Nothing worked. No pain relievers, heat, cold, nothing. Since then, he hasn’t improved. I am on disability. He has always been the strong, super hero. Rock climbing, running with the dog, former military. I never imagined he may not be able to work. He is a contractor. His back/spine controls almost every single thing he does.
Now, we have a MRI scheduled for the 15th. I spent an hour on the phone with the Laser Spine Institute. We’re considering our options. But, he’s been saying (a lot) lately, that he may not be able to continue working. Today, our son went to work with him after his school duties were finished. How much longer he’ll be able to hold out, I don’t know.
But, I have been spending a lot of time in prayer. I’m seeking God’s guidance in every move. We would certainly have to eliminate some spending. My disability checks are a joke, if we’re being honest. They’re not even a 1/4 of what I was making working. But, I know God has kept us from every losing our home, delivered healings, pulled off the unthinkable. I’ve seen today miracles and know of Biblical ones.
Some how, this is going to work out. I have a peace I cannot explain. Will he continue working? Will we both be on disability? I can’t say yet. But, I’m buckled up, holding Jesus’ hand, and waiting to find out.